My name is Cassandra. I'm 22 years old and I have dissociative identity disorder.

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When I miss him, I write about him. I miss him often.

-Alice

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THINGS WE LOST IN THE FIRE by Bastille IS LIKE MY NEW FAVORITE SONG OMG

-JAX

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didanthology:

we have this weird worry we don’t switch enough. how often do other people switch?

Currently we switch anywhere between 5 times a day to once every few days, but both our system and our host’s boyfriend’s system went for almost a year / a year plus during which they didn’t switch almost at all and the alters weren’t really around. There’s really no such thing I don’t think as switching “enough” or “not enough”. Don’t worry about it :)

-Idris

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Hello lovely! Do you have any books (novels and biographies) written by/about people with DID? I'm 'not otherwise specified' and don't seem to have an inner world as such and was wondering if you knew any books that talked about that. Many thanks. :) Charlie

tizzyrainbow:

Hi Charlie! 

I’ve read a few biographies; Today I’m Alice by Alice Jamieson and Fractured by Ruth Dee. There is All of me by Kim Noble - I have it but I’ve not read it yet although I know others on Tumblr have.

I have The Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook which is very informative but its very heavy going and I’ve not read all of it yet (Maybe only a few pages?)

There is also Amongst Ourselves which I think is quite a popular choice since it’s a  self-help guide. It’s one I would definitely say try giving a go but I’ve only managed a few pages myself - however it’s something I plan to go back to when I’m more settled. 

I would recommend caution with reading biographies since there can be some triggering material in there - that said even reading Amongst Ourselves made me a bit spaced out but I can’t really pin point why. 

I’d say search for DID on Amazon or something and see if there is anything else that may help you.

With regards the inner world, I wouldn’t worry too much but research sounds like a positive step. I know there are systems who do not have inner worlds or who may not know much about their inner worlds. For me personally I still don’t know much about it and I’ve only seen glimpses of it - although that seems to be getting better since we are communicating more. Jade is more than happy to answer questions about life inside. 

I hope this helps! 

I hugely recommend “All Of Me” by Kim Noble! It is a great DID book!

-Idris/Alice

How To Tell If Someone Is Faking DID?

dissociating-in-wonderland:

paradoxical-enigma:

There is going to be a section on the “Understanding DID Cheat Sheet” on how to tell if someone MIGHT be Faking DID. What do you guys think I should write on this section? How do you tell if someone is Faking? Reblog with responses or send them to our ask box! - Sarah

It’s no one’s job in this community to decide who’s faking and who’s not. There are signs, but there’s no way to tell for sure if someone is unless they state it themselves. Accusing someone of faking when they aren’t can be incredibly damaging. Don’t do it.

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Whatever you happen to think about others’ claims of DID, whether or not you think they are legit, you fucking keep that to yourself. 

That is the binder I could not remember to save my life. I'm sorry I was no help, but glad you found it anyways.

THANK YOU THOUGH IT’S GOOD TO KNOW THIS IS THE ONE YOU WERE THINKING OF THIS IS HELPFUL INFORMATION

-Idris

cloudplusone:

oh-cecil-oh:

thehayleybreanne:

softstationmanagement:

cheatcommandos:

hotdadhardy:

fictionalfeather:

Okay can I talk about my binder for a sec?

I’m a 34D, so all binders are awkward for me. Small band, large cup. So I never get quite flat, but some lumpy monstrosity with underboob poking out. But this one gets me the closest to flat while being the most comfortable binder I own.

And it looks like a tanktop!! And it was $10!!

It’s got stretchy bits on one side, and a line of bra-like clasps on the other that you can adjust to three different sizes, again like a bra. I didn’t overheat or even really sweat even when wearing it under a shirt in early summer pre-storm humidity. And once you get yourself situated just right, you can’t tell the tank is actually a binder.

Bam. Awesome.

$10.

EDIT: Here’s the link!

daaaaaaamn

I have this binder! I love this binder! Also, it doesn’t hurt my lower ribs like my Underworks binder does!

IM BOOKMARK

Booooooost because $10 binder

BUYING THIS THE SECOND I HAVE 10 EXTRA BUCKS

I read somewhere not to buy binders with those example pictures though? I can’t remember much of it though…

IF YOU FIND OUT WHERE YOU READ THAT YOU SHOULD TELL ME OTHERWISE THIS IS GOING ON MY TO-GET LIST

solumcinerem:

There once was a time that we knew damn well we’d be wise beyond our years,

now we’re old and it seems we’re getting dumber.

There once was a rhyme that would bring peacefulness to both of our ears,

but this music lets us know that we’re not getting any younger.

My mother would not be proud of my mouth but I can’t get a sentence out

without some sacrilege and sounding like a sailor.

Every time i go home for the holiday and tell her how it’s been,

the look on her face says it’s obvious I have failed her.

But you don’t know,

no, you can’t go where I’ve been.

And I don’t know,

no, I’ll never get where I’m going.

And every day I hear somebody say something like, “Yeah, I just got back

from China backpacking and giving food to children.”

I have never strayed too far away from this east coast where I remain.

In my heart I am so envious, I could kill them

And I am running out of time to do the things I used to say that I

was put on this earth to do by God in His heaven.

Seemed that I believed in something then. Dear Lord, what happened to my head?

Now the days go by so fast that I lose time because I don’t sync it

But you don’t know,

no, you can’t go where I’ve been.

And I don’t know,

no, I’ll never get where I’m going.

But you don’t know,

no, you can’t go where I’ve been.

And I don’t know,

no, I’ll never get where I’m going.

strangersinside:

I have zero desire to attempt to be a functional human being today either someone else needs to take over or I am going back to bed

-Idris

I did it I went to work and got through the day our system is not quite the well-oiled machine it seems to be sometimes

-Idris

I have zero desire to attempt to be a functional human being today either someone else needs to take over or I am going back to bed

-Idris

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