My name is Cassandra. I'm 22 years old and I have dissociative identity disorder.

What is DID?

About The Host
--Host's Tag--

About The Alters
(Alter Tags Below)

Contact Information


We had an interview today and it didn’t go well. Not sure if I’ll be sticking around, but I’m new.

Either way, welcome. It’s nice to meet you.


tags: alice +

I’ve had a lot of feelings today. But Idris bought a cute and wonderfully cheap journal for all of us to share, so I wrote in it during the downtime at work, and I felt a little better. Feelings are still just so far out of my understanding that I don’t know what to do with them. 


tags: alice +

15 days later, after sending the computer in for repairs, getting it back to find that Dell had only done half of the promised repairs, and having to go through the process of having a technician come out to the house, we finally have our own working laptop again. Again though a big thanks to Sam for letting us use his old laptop while ours wasn’t working because we might’ve gone crazy without it.


tags: alice +



Butterfly Dance by Chucky-tan

Alice, for you.

Oooh, this is so pretty! Thanks so much for sharing!


tags: alice +


The recent release of “Dawn of the Planet of the Apes" reminded me of one of my favorite ape vs. man films – this 1932 video that shows a baby chimpanzee and a baby human undergoing the same basic psychological tests.

Its gets weirder – the human baby (Donald) and the chimpanzee baby (Gua) were both raised as humans by their biological/adopted father Winthrop Niles Kellogg.  Kellogg was a comparative psychologist fascinated by the interplay between nature and nurture, and he devised a fascinating (and questionably ethical) experiment to study it:

Suppose an anthropoid were taken into a typical human family at the day of birth and reared as a child. Suppose he were fed upon a bottle, clothed, washed, bathed, fondled, and given a characteristically human environment; that he were spoken to like the human infant from the moment of parturition; that he had an adopted human mother and an adopted human father.

First, Kellogg had to convince his pregnant wife he wasn’t crazy:

 …the enthusiasm of one of us met with so much resistance from the other that it appeared likely we could never come to an agreement upon whether or not we should even attempt such an undertaking.

She apparently gave in, because Donald and Gua were raised, for nine months, as brother and sister. Much like Caesar in the “Planet of the Apes” movies, Gua developed faster than her “brother,” and often outperformed him in tasks. But she soon hit a cognitive wall, and the experiment came to an end. (Probably for the best, as Donald had begun to speak chimpanzee.)

You can read more about Kellogg’s experiment, its legacy, and public reaction to it here.

prismata - Slayde, I thought you might appreciate this. Small primates, right? :)


tags: alice +

If your parental figure can that easily trigger a panic attack in you and they don’t give two fucks about doing it, you are in a toxic and emotionally abusive household.

Judy gave Jax another panic attack and I’m fucking livid. 


tags: idris +

I hate being here I hate it so much this house is so fucking toxic. One day they’re your friends offering to do nice things for you because you’ve been working so hard and the next day they’re bitching you out because you “haven’t done anything for them lately” I hate it here and I can understand why it made Cassandra want to punch walls and cut herself this place is horrible

I have to not be out anymore because I’m having self-destructive urges and we have to protect the body




Okay this is going to sound super whiny but 98% of singletons have zero idea how lucky they are to not have to wake up every morning and have their first thought be the question, “Okay, who the fuck am I right now?”

Isn’t the whole point of DID that you don’t know anything about the other personalities and you can’t remember what happened during those periods of time

No, there is nothing in the DSM-IV’s diagnostic criteria stating that someone must be unaware of their other personalities to have dissociative identity disorder. Yes, being unable to remember some of the things that have happened while another peraonality is in control is generally accepted as part of the disorder, but when a person is aware of having DID, efforts can be made to increase recall.

The *point* of DID is that it is a trauma based disorder and creative coping mechanism.



a post where I explain with images how foxes are the best thing ever, and how if you disagree you are obviously wrong

me me me me i’m posting this for me i’ve had a shit week and look at all the wonderful foxes


tags: idris +

Sorry for the inactivity, we are like 120% too busy and stressed out right now with life in general so we probably won’t be posting much for a week or so.